Staying Composed Isn’t the Same as Being Aligned

A few years ago, I remember sitting in my car after a full day of meetings.

On paper, it had been a good day.
Productive. Forward-moving. Successful.

But I didn’t feel grounded.

I wasn’t overwhelmed.
I wasn’t emotional.
I wasn’t questioning my capability.

I just felt… disconnected.

I remember thinking, “I should feel better than this.”

And that’s when it clicked — nothing was wrong on the outside.
Something was misaligned on the inside.

I had learned how to stay composed.
How to lead.
How to carry responsibility without letting it show.

That strength carried me far.

But over time, it taught me to override my own inner voice.
To push past discomfort instead of listening to it.
To confuse endurance with alignment.

And eventually, confidence stopped feeling rooted.

Not because I was weak.
But because I was carrying too much alone.

True confidence isn’t about becoming stronger.

It’s about becoming honest again.

Honest with yourself.
Honest about what feels off.
Honest about what no longer fits.

Faith doesn’t ask us to perform.
It asks us to return.

To listen.
To realign.
To trust what’s being rebuilt quietly.

If you’ve felt this — the subtle distance between who you are and how you’re showing up — you’re not behind.

You’re being invited inward.

And that invitation matters.

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Christina
Christina